Who I Am

Haven’t posted anything on tumblr for a while so immma start back up again ! Anywhooo, this past weeek has been probably one of my worst in a long time. I’m tired of losing all of my best friends. They either just walk out or backstabbed/hurt me real bad. Know I question who are my real friends. I want to be able to trust people, but how can I? Everyone I have ever trusted has proven to be unworthy, so I question if anyone ever will prove themselves trustworthy. But the only way to find out if they are or not is to tell them a secret, but what if they arent & run off & tell someone my secret? See, I overthink things now. I want to just have trust & believe in everything and everyone..but I can’t now. I’ve lost one of the greatest friends that I trusted with my whole life & now he is gone. He is gone because people dragged him away from me. I wish I could just scream my thoughts, I wish everyone knew what I’m feeling at this moment. But “I Wish” will never get me anything I desire. Sometimes I feel like giving up.

(via taniaaduhh) Me and Bryse plan to do all these things, either soon or in the future hahahah

Things have beeen falling apart just as I thought things were getting better. I was excited for next year because FINALLY on varsity with all my friends..then I made home squad again & I was CRUSHED. Everyone is giving me a hard time kos I wanna join football now. Well FUCK YOU. This is my decsion NOT YOURS. Then recently I felt like I’ve lost my best friend from middle schoool. We had an argument one night & we haven’t spoke since..& it’s been weeeks. I was trying to tell her everything going on & what I’ve been going through & she got mad before I could tell her the whole truth..I didn’t even BEGIN. Then lately I felt like I’ve lost my best guy friend. But we ressolved that..THANK GOD. Idk what I would do without him..& now I practically lost my other two best friends. I made a mistake that I didn’t think that was even that bad. They were my SISTERS & now I’m not even allowed to hang out with them anymore..Idk what right from wrong anymore. I felt like I’ve lost everything. I can’t help but cry all the time anymore now. This summer was supposed to the best..but without my bestfriends…idk. This is the time when I need a boyfriend. :’( I hate this, I thuoght everything was almost perfect. Now it’s ruined. I know I’ve done bad things, I know I’ve done things that I shouldn’t, I know I’ve said things that I shouldn’t have but I’M ONLY HUMAN!!! People make mistakes! & This is high school! Shit happens. But now everything is backfiring on me. & All I want to do is cry to my best friend but I don’t have her! And now IDK what to do! All I have now is Bryse, & Although I love her with all my heart & she’s been there for me with alot it’s not the same. It will never be the same. If I could go back in time I would..but it’s impossible now & I’ve lost everything dear to me. My mom was even talking about changing schools… Things will change. Things always change whether its for the good or bad. Things have already changed for the worse..Nothing else could make it much worse now. God..Where are you?

jadoretiffany:

This phrase is getting used waaaay too much.

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kari-shma:

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FIVE things you wish you could say to FIVE different people right now:

• What’s done is done. I’m sorry I’m not the person yu want me to be.
• I love you.
• Thank yu so much for always being here for me, I love you so much<3
• He cheated on you (;
• After everything we’ve been through, I’m so glad we are still so strong<33

TEN things about yourself:

• I’m ugly
• I think I’m pretty darn hilarious (x 
• I’m careless
• I’m fat
• I can be a HUGE bitch
• I think I’m the greatest friend a person can have
• I’m a great listener
• Sometimes my advise should be put in teen magazines xD
• I am such a great girlfriend if I was givin the chance
• I care a little too much
• I HATE how easily people can persuade me to do something.

SEVEN ways to win your heart:

• Be sweeeet!
• Be honest!
• Tell me I’m Beautiful!
• Hold me tight!
• Be a little mysterious!
• Be seductive ;) HAHA!

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:

• Love Life
• Boys.
• Mistakes I’ve made
• The past
• The girl drama
• Summer
• The future 

Four things you do before you fall asleep:

• Brush my teeth.
• Go pee.
• Text.
• Watch Tv or Listen to music

FOUR things you see right now:

• Tumblr Page
• Mouse
• A Hair Brush
• One speaker

THREE songs that you listen to often:

• Energy - Keri Hilson
• Any DanceGavinDance song
• Beauty in the Breakdown- The Scene of Aesthetics

TWO things you want to do before you die:

• Get married
• Be a photographer

ONE confession:

• Underneath all the smiles, giggles & jokes is a whole other story full of secrets, lies & betrayls.

I don’t expect you to text me 24/7.

I don’t expect you to call me everyday.

I don’t expect you to put me in front of your boys.

I don’t expect you to ditch all your girl best friends for me.

I don’t expect you to surprise me with roses.

I don’t expect you to buy me the world on my…